The day of graduation is slowly coming upon me and so is the fear. I feel like this particular day, is the day i have be dreading for all my life. School has always made me feel safe. I dont have to make any major decisions and I can dabble in whatever various activites I want without the feeling like Im wasting my life..Cause I was progressing educationally in school. Now school is coming to an end and I still havent realized what the hell im going to do with my life. I feel this is a make it or break it point. I can either look back at this point, when im older, as the moment my life began or the moment I regret in my life the most. I have little confidence that the first option will occur. The pressure is killing me!!!!!

Anyways, this is not all to say I havent been planning. One of my desired life goals is to have my own apartment. I always imagined this goal may be realized after a year of working and saving up. However, this was before Jordan came along. Now I have to get my shit together, get a job in Baltimore as soon as possible and eventually rent an apartment with my Jordan. O the things we do for love.

I was looking on Craigslist for possible motivators and I saw some gorgeous places. I may not want to live in Baltimore for the rest of my life, but I have to say there is some really great real estate here. Here is one called Greenhouse:

I LOVE LOVE LOVE the exposed brick and hardwood floors. This place is pricey, but it does help me get a little more ambitious.